Heather Killebrew
Heather Killebrew
@heather-killebrewFrom the outset of our communication, there were inconsistencies. When I researched her online prior to our first conversation, I found information stating that she was a real estate agent. This turned out to be false and misleading. This initial deception set the tone for our interactions and led to a lack of trust. There were many other instances where her words and actions did not align. I found this pattern of behavior of her's to be habitual, pathelogical and unacceptable. Heather Killebrew, I believe she has been duplicitous, dishonest and deceitful.
Please stop. I wonder how many dick pics and videos you made for her? I realize that you knew her much longer than a week for her to video herself masterbating and sending to you. You are both sick. I wasn't enough in your mind. I'm sorry. Never again. It's also so sad that her name was all over those video pics and thinking how many police officers, lawyers, courts, assistants, clerks and judges and probably many more people who saw those images. It was all printed and put into the harassment package. I wonder how she would feel if she knew how many people saw her naked pictures and masterbating video? I wonder? She is an idiot. You are sick. And I was the fool. Never again.
Since rediscovering and rereading this email, I must express my profound discontent with its contents. The deliberate and malicious actions taken by Heather Killebrew, with assistance, to publicly embarrass, humiliate, and victimize an innocent individual are deeply concerning.
Furthermore, the subsequent email Heather Killebrew sent on June 6, in which she falsely claimed the police had contacted this person, is a blatant lie and only adds to the gravity of the situation. The truth, as I've come to understand, is that this person was contacted via LinkedIn by someone claiming to be a former police officer turned private investigator hired and retained by Heather Killebrew. This occurred in October 2020, before my arrest, and the "investigator" disclosed the contents of the harassment package to the other party. Heather's dishonesty and deceit are evident, as she was fully aware that the other party already knew this information due to her own actions.
Furthermore, the subsequent email Heather Killebrew sent on June 6, in which she falsely claimed the police had contacted this person, is a blatant lie and only adds to the gravity of the situation. The truth, as I've come to understand, is that this person was contacted via LinkedIn by someone claiming to be a former police officer turned private investigator hired and retained by Heather Killebrew. This occurred in October 2020, before my arrest, and the "investigator" disclosed the contents of the harassment package to the other party. Heather's dishonesty and deceit are evident, as she was fully aware that the other party already knew this information due to her own actions.
Regarding Heather Killebrew's comment, "It's also so sad that her name was all over those video pics," I would like to address the issue of how that person's name appeared in the packet.
I want to make it clear that I never mentioned, confirmed, or wrote that person's name on any document. It seems that either Heather, or someone acting on Heather Killebrew's behalf, included the name in the packet. Furthermore, the inclusion of the name, especially in large print across the top of each page, was unnecessary and potentially embarrassing for the individual involved.
There were alternative ways to handle the situation, such as using initials, leaving it blank, or using a generic phrase like "other party." The intentional use of the person's full name raises concerns about the motivation behind it.
I would appreciate clarification on this matter by the prosecuting attorney involved as why and how that was allowed to happen and occur.
I want to make it clear that I never mentioned, confirmed, or wrote that person's name on any document. It seems that either Heather, or someone acting on Heather Killebrew's behalf, included the name in the packet. Furthermore, the inclusion of the name, especially in large print across the top of each page, was unnecessary and potentially embarrassing for the individual involved.
There were alternative ways to handle the situation, such as using initials, leaving it blank, or using a generic phrase like "other party." The intentional use of the person's full name raises concerns about the motivation behind it.
I would appreciate clarification on this matter by the prosecuting attorney involved as why and how that was allowed to happen and occur.
Joey Montes rediscovers an email from Heather Killebrew, nearly three months before his plea hearing, in which she publicly embarrasses and humiliates another person. Heather sent an email to Joey Montes on June 3rd, 2021, the contents of which are specified in the provided context.
"It's also so sad that her name was all over those video pics and thinking how many police officers, lawyers, courts, assistants, clerks and judges and probably many more people who saw those images. It was all printed and put into the harassment package. I wonder how she would feel if she knew how many people saw her naked pictures and masterbating video? I wonder?" - sent by Heather Killebrew
Gemini's summary of my notes and questions regarding this June 3rd, 2021 email sent by Heather
* Heather Killebrew wrote that it was sad that a person's name was all over the video pics.
* Joey Montes questions who wrote the person's name on the packet and how it got there, stating they never wrote the name on anything.
* Joey Montes suggests that Heather or someone on her behalf wrote the name and that it was done intentionally to identify and embarrass the person.
* Joey Montes states that there was no need to include the person's full name and that it could have been initials, left blank, or a simple phrase like "other party."
* Joey Montes says that there is much more to this and that it requires a detailed timeline and more of Heather's emails.
Additional Gemini summary
Joey Montes rediscovers an email from Heather Killebrew, nearly three months before his plea hearing, in which she publicly embarrasses and humiliates another person.
* Heather sent an email to Joey three months before his plea hearing, which he didn't fully understand at the time.
* Joey reread the email and realized Heather intentionally and maliciously embarrassed and victimized another innocent person.
* Heather falsely claimed in a later email that the police had contacted this other person.
* The other person was actually contacted via LinkedIn by someone claiming to be a former police officer hired by Heather to investigate Joey.
* The "investigator" informed the other person about the harassment package, which Heather already knew about.
* Heather was dishonest and deceitful in her communication.
"It's also so sad that her name was all over those video pics and thinking how many police officers, lawyers, courts, assistants, clerks and judges and probably many more people who saw those images. It was all printed and put into the harassment package. I wonder how she would feel if she knew how many people saw her naked pictures and masterbating video? I wonder?" - sent by Heather Killebrew
Gemini's summary of my notes and questions regarding this June 3rd, 2021 email sent by Heather
* Heather Killebrew wrote that it was sad that a person's name was all over the video pics.
* Joey Montes questions who wrote the person's name on the packet and how it got there, stating they never wrote the name on anything.
* Joey Montes suggests that Heather or someone on her behalf wrote the name and that it was done intentionally to identify and embarrass the person.
* Joey Montes states that there was no need to include the person's full name and that it could have been initials, left blank, or a simple phrase like "other party."
* Joey Montes says that there is much more to this and that it requires a detailed timeline and more of Heather's emails.
Additional Gemini summary
Joey Montes rediscovers an email from Heather Killebrew, nearly three months before his plea hearing, in which she publicly embarrasses and humiliates another person.
* Heather sent an email to Joey three months before his plea hearing, which he didn't fully understand at the time.
* Joey reread the email and realized Heather intentionally and maliciously embarrassed and victimized another innocent person.
* Heather falsely claimed in a later email that the police had contacted this other person.
* The other person was actually contacted via LinkedIn by someone claiming to be a former police officer hired by Heather to investigate Joey.
* The "investigator" informed the other person about the harassment package, which Heather already knew about.
* Heather was dishonest and deceitful in her communication.
āIt's also so sad that her name was all over those video picsā Heather Killebrew wrote. Exactly, who and how did that personās name appear in that packet? , which Heather produced, provided and ādistributedā. I never mention, confirm nor write that personās name on anything.
Either, Heather, herself or someone on Heatherās behalf, did. Furthermore, there was no need for it to be included, in the first place, let alone handwriting the personās name in large print across the top of each page. If you think about it, it could have been just the other personās initials, it could have been left blank, it could have been the simple phrase āother partyā. It could have been multiple other ways, but it wasnāt, it was done intentionally to identify and embarrass that other person.
There is so much in this, which ties and leads to other things that require a detailed timeline and a lot more of Heatherās emails. A lot more to come on this...
Either, Heather, herself or someone on Heatherās behalf, did. Furthermore, there was no need for it to be included, in the first place, let alone handwriting the personās name in large print across the top of each page. If you think about it, it could have been just the other personās initials, it could have been left blank, it could have been the simple phrase āother partyā. It could have been multiple other ways, but it wasnāt, it was done intentionally to identify and embarrass that other person.
There is so much in this, which ties and leads to other things that require a detailed timeline and a lot more of Heatherās emails. A lot more to come on this...
In going through my emails, I came across this email, which Heather had sent to me, nearly three months before my plea hearing the first time. Heather sent this email June 3rd, 2021. At the time this was sent to me, it didnāt fully register with me what she was saying.
Since rediscovering and rereading the contents contained in this email, it hasnāt set well with me, at all. Another, a completely innocent person, has been, with forethought, malice and intention to do so, publicly embarrassed, humiliated and victimized by Heather Killebrew with help and aid.
Furthermore, I will find out a few days after this email, on June 6 in another email, sent by Heather, in which Heather claims the āpoliceā had contacted this other person, which in fact is untrue and a bold face lie. The other party was contacted via LinkedIn, was sent a message that stated, he is a āformer police officerā, now private investigator who had been āhiredā and retained by Heather Killebrew to investigate possible other harassment of women by [my name] and asked if she would be willing to speak with him regarding the matter and a left a phone number for her to call if willing. This happened and occurred in October of 2020, before, I was arrested and charged in the first matter.
At the time the other party contacted this āinvestigatorā as Heather will call him, the āinvestigatorā informed the other party of the contents of the harassment package. Heather is being dishonest and deceitful, she knows the other party already knows because Heather made sure the other party was informed of it.
Since rediscovering and rereading the contents contained in this email, it hasnāt set well with me, at all. Another, a completely innocent person, has been, with forethought, malice and intention to do so, publicly embarrassed, humiliated and victimized by Heather Killebrew with help and aid.
Furthermore, I will find out a few days after this email, on June 6 in another email, sent by Heather, in which Heather claims the āpoliceā had contacted this other person, which in fact is untrue and a bold face lie. The other party was contacted via LinkedIn, was sent a message that stated, he is a āformer police officerā, now private investigator who had been āhiredā and retained by Heather Killebrew to investigate possible other harassment of women by [my name] and asked if she would be willing to speak with him regarding the matter and a left a phone number for her to call if willing. This happened and occurred in October of 2020, before, I was arrested and charged in the first matter.
At the time the other party contacted this āinvestigatorā as Heather will call him, the āinvestigatorā informed the other party of the contents of the harassment package. Heather is being dishonest and deceitful, she knows the other party already knows because Heather made sure the other party was informed of it.
Just so you know.
Holy shit, Heather. Holy shit and this is going to go on for a couple more months? Holy shit.
I had no idea. No concept. I canāt get out of this. I want out, please let me be. Let me out of this. Please.
You shouldnāt have been throwing insults at me. I destroyed the checks because you frighten me. Iām sure your bank canāt
steal the money. You can give it to your new group of women. Iām happy for you.
Totally Untrue
Please STOP sending voicemail messages. If you continue to threaten me, you leave me no choice but to contact the
authorities. I will defend myself from your false accusations of me. I did it before and I will do it again. Everyone knows
who the dangerous person is and itās definitely not me. I will defend myself. Your choice. Stop attacking me or go to
prison. Your choice.
deflction and coercion
I donāt want to spend another second on this. The money was yours to do whatever you wanted to with it. You choose.
Not for me to say anything further about. It did what you wanted to do with it. Thats all I was saying. Not twisting or
implying anything past that. Please stop with the thinking I am out to get you. Iām not. Iām trying to move forward and away
from this. It hurts to much all the time.
This is just silliness and how things go and went with us. I was trying to help you get your driveway fixed, provided the funds to do so and it becomes this. I never asked or expected anything in return. Was trying to help you because I care about you. Not to get you or tie you to anything. Just trying to help you out of kindness and love.
It then turns to this and it always does. I provided the funds to help you, not get you. Iām sorry that it winds up this way every time. Not trying to hurt you, only was trying to help you. Sorry it always goes this way.
It then turns to this and it always does. I provided the funds to help you, not get you. Iām sorry that it winds up this way every time. Not trying to hurt you, only was trying to help you. Sorry it always goes this way.
I was just trying to help, Heather. I was just to help you. Thatās all. Iām sorry it goes the way it does. I was just trying to help you out and help you get your driveway fixed. Wasnāt trying to get you or hurt you. Iām sorry you destroyed those checks.
I was just trying to help you from a loving, kind and gentle heart. I was trying to help you not hurt or upset you.
You started throwing insults at me as usual, you go way too far. And the saddest part is that we fought about KELLY and her children.. A person you lied about and kept hidden, but chose to hurt and disappoint me instead of her. So sad. I donāt need you to help me. You can supply your new group that I donāt know about. Another hidden stash of women on the side. I just canāt do it. I understand how Dawne must have felt.. just giving up. I give up.
used deflection and manipulation
There is no secret stash of women and you wonāt stop hurting me with Dawne.
You just wonāt stop hurting me with Dawne.
I feel compassion for Dawne. You have worn me out. No man is worth chasing. Not doing it. I just give up.
No more. Please stop. No more. You hurt me so badly all the time. Please no more.
You wonāt stop. You are harming, damaging and hurting me with your lies about Dawne. You are hurting me and causing
me such distress and harm. Please stop.
Iām gonna go to the police if you keep lying about me...
We both stop now.
Your not chasing me, youāre harming me. Itās stops now.
I want out. Let me out of this. Please.
Youāve harmed, damaged and hurt me once again. You keep hurting and harming. You canāt stop. Please stop. Please.
When the judge sees this itās going to be hilarious. You keep contacting me.
I truly thought you had lost your mind and ability to function last year.. but now Iām sincerely worried that you have lost touch with reality and going off the deep end. Please understand that if you donāt stop lashing out at me with these compulsive and delusional lies, I have no choice but to report it for my safety and most importantly the safety of your kids. I believe they are in danger with you and your delusional thinking. Your crazy talk is the same things you were saying about Pam Weber. Youāre acting delusional. Itās incredibly frightening. Please get a hold of yourself before you go too far and canāt go back.
Good morning. You wrote that you found relief in your perspective only, regardless of.., thatās all that matters.
Going back in our old email history, itās the same thing almost on the same day. Itās almost the same thing we both message back-and-forth to each other. It needs to change. The only way for that to happen is for you to tell me how you want it and the way you want it. We both canāt keep on going like this. If you wouldnāt mind, can you please tell me your way? And then we will do it your way. I canāt keep guessing or assuming based on things that you write. I take what you write and say like gospel. It is confusing for both of us. I take you literally. Both of us have to be tired of the guessing game and assumptions. I will do as you need and want and do things your way, so if you could please tell me what your way is.
It wonāt be me vanishing or disappearing or anything like that. It is just me respecting your boundaries, space and your choices and decisions. I will always be available to you if you choose and decide for yourself and not be forced to by me.
I do not understand your message from this morning st 7:02am. I am too busy to try and figure out your bullshit code
messages. I will avoid everything if it doesnāt make sense.. and since you take everything as gospel, I will do the same.
Nothing without the hard evidence proof. Nothing. Take care.
Sent from my iPhone
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Sent from my iPhone
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Disregard my last message. Iām going to take what you wrote about Kristie and Pam and Angie as the gospel. Thanks.
Take care.
I wasnāt expecting you to completely ignore me, but it does answer all my questions. No more reaction from me. Good
luck.
Iām not ignoring you. Itās always the same. Read your message he said to disregard.
I donāt want you anymore. Thereās your gospel. No more. You are an idiot. Goodbye. I wonāt be responding to anything. Donāt care what it is. Happy for you. I am done with you. Gospel. Kristie can have you. Happiness.
Happy that we agree that itās over. You can cowardly be with your slut. I will move on to an honest relationship. Good luck
in the future!
The police told me that I needed to give you notice that I donāt want any contact from you. This is my notice. Thereās no
reason for you to contact me ever again about anything. Thanks. Take care.
You have an art for saying nothing. I get it. Hereās how this works.. since youāre ignoring me I will have to get a lawyer to
put it into words and maybe that will make you wake up. Iāve been ignored and pushed around for too long. You are not
worth any of this! If anything, Iāve learned just how cold and callous you are. You donāt give a fuck! And now I donāt! I just
want to be untangled from you.
I donāt need to explain what you already know. Happy game playing with some other unfortunate woman that crosses your
path. You are a heinous monster!
I understand clearly now what Pam went through when you decided to discard her like garbage! Definitely Enough Dead
and tortured women!! I get it!! You fucked her over and now youāre fucking me over!! Women should stick together and put
garbage like YOU on the curb!!
So why are you still contacting me? Itās makes no sense. Iām going to now do it your way and say nothing. Push me right out of your life by saying nothing. Interesting strategy but it will backfire. All youāre doing is creating so much more pain and thatās the way you like it. Your dead pathetic drug addict wife gave you so much drama. And now you need to create as much pain as possible for others because youāre nothing.
Itās called gray rocking someone.. but you didnāt need to do that to me to rid yourself, I happily will go!! Happily! Happy
gray rocking!!
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Gray Rocking - is a strategy used to avoid conflict. I Gray Rock by nature. I am conflict adverse and conflict avoidant to begin with and she knows that. I try to avoid conflict and upset.
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I had s type of relationship with that person? Huh? Never mind gray rock lives
I understand youāre avoiding what you wrote. Now I understand. You had s type of relationship. Got it.
Youāre causing me so much pain. I understand why she killed herself to get away from you. Youāre hurting me on purpose.
Itās unbelievable. But thank you for showing your scales in the light. Scary scary stuff. Iām afraid. You win.
Simply, a bunch of ..
You win
Since youāre so hell bent on hurting me.. thanks. He will be surprised and happy that Iām single again. Thank you Joey for
absolutely throwing me away so heinously and spitefully. I truly will remember this forever. Everything happens for a
reason and I guess you had a reason to shit all over me. Itās not unnoticed. Thank you again. Thank you.
He Never had to shave to pretend itās bigger! He didnāt have to. Heās already huge! FU! Thanksgiving was incredible. Go
look at that nasty skank you left me for. Scary ugly.
Your smallest ever. Dawne was desperate. Kristie is so the person for you. God thank you! Sincerely!!
You dragged me down to your level unfortunately.. this is just silly. Wasting my time no more. Itās time to start living and
having fun and letting myself be enjoyed and enjoy. No need for any response or reaction whatsoever. I will just assume
youāre going on with your life as I will be as well. See ya!
Iām bored with this childish routine. Have a great night!
Itās email. Itās not actually discussing anything. Itās just back-and-forth between one email address and another. Thatās why.
Itās email, itās just one statement sent to an email address after another one and back-and-forth. Just statements. Itās not discussing anything. Itās one statement after another and back-and-forth. itās impersonal and leaves the other party to interpret the tone and tenor. And a response is being written with another being received. Itās freaking email.
Email also isnāt private. Email is clear text sent over the Internet that can be easily captured or copied. Itās not secure and
itās not private.
I will use that in court. You threatened me. Go ahead and see what happens if you put my personal stuff on the internet.
Double dog dare ya! You look good in stripes!
I would hate for your kids to see what you wrote about their mother being a dick sucking whore? Your kids donāt need to
know that you said Dawne was a prostitute.
Here is what Heather is referring to. - This is what I had written on July 22 2021.
"I was cheated on by [ Name Redacted ] with her ex-boyfriend Tom and I stayed until she left. I was cheated on over and over again by [ Name Redacted ], I walked away. She was a rebound from [ Name Redacted ]. I was cheated on by [ Name Redacted ] for pills and I stayed".
She once asked me why I had gotten married so quickly after getting divorced and I said "we got pregnant".
Click to view that email
"I was cheated on by [ Name Redacted ] with her ex-boyfriend Tom and I stayed until she left. I was cheated on over and over again by [ Name Redacted ], I walked away. She was a rebound from [ Name Redacted ]. I was cheated on by [ Name Redacted ] for pills and I stayed".
She once asked me why I had gotten married so quickly after getting divorced and I said "we got pregnant".
Click to view that email
Once again, you have misread what I was trying to say about email. Itās not a good form of Communication and it leads to miss reading what somebodyās trying to tell you.
I would hate for [ My Son Name ] to know that you said he was a mistake! His crack head whore of a mother got knocked up and he
was a mistake.. your words Joseph. Donāt threaten me.
Here is what Heather is referring to. - This is what I had written on July 22 2021.
"I was cheated on by [ Name Redacted ] with her ex-boyfriend Tom and I stayed until she left. I was cheated on over and over again by [ Name Redacted ], I walked away. She was a rebound from [ Name Redacted ]. I was cheated on by [ Name Redacted ] for pills and I stayed".
She once asked me why I had gotten married so quickly after getting divorced and I said "we got pregnant".
Click to view that email
"I was cheated on by [ Name Redacted ] with her ex-boyfriend Tom and I stayed until she left. I was cheated on over and over again by [ Name Redacted ], I walked away. She was a rebound from [ Name Redacted ]. I was cheated on by [ Name Redacted ] for pills and I stayed".
She once asked me why I had gotten married so quickly after getting divorced and I said "we got pregnant".
Click to view that email
Iām not threatening you in any way shape or form. It is why companies and lawyers put the disclaimer at the bottom of emails.
Youāre just misread what Iām writing so Iām just not gonna write anymore.
How about this.. just stop emailing me, stop texting me and go live your life and stop trying to drag me down with you. I
donāt want this. This is a burden. I just want to go on and live a happy life and share with a man who appreciates me and
is honest from minute One! Please just let me go. Go cause someone else to die because it isnāt going to be me no matter
how hard you try. Youāll just end up in stripes. Guaranteed. Quit while youāre still free...
Since itās an open invitation maybe I will forward the email you sent me to Kristie.. you sent her naked photo via email. I
bet she could get a lawsuit against you for that! Thanks for the new information about email! I will let her know!!
This is just more of the same. Itās not actually discussing anything. Itās a statement after statement. You misread me and Iām good at writing.
Iām not threatening you with anything I was just making you aware if you thought email was private youāre wrong. Thatās all I was trying to convey to you.
[ NAME HAS BEEN REDACTED ] made PORN and distributed it!! JOSEPH ROBERT MONTES jacks off his little noodle to [ NAME HAS BEEN REDACTED ] PORN. Ha!
I will say it again! Stop emailing me! Stop texting me! Youāre provoking and harassing me!!
Remember this.. I was weak and didnāt fight back years ago.. this time will be different and you will serve time in prison. I
will fight back this time! Remember it. Absorb it. You have threatened me again and Iām taking notice of your threat. I wonāt
back down this time! The only reason you didnāt serve prison time is because I didnāt fight! See what happens if you try to
harm me or have someone else on your behalf try to harm me. You put the threat out there. You think youāre above the
law but youāre not! I have all of your voice recordings of when you threatened to take down the police and the judges.
They will stop you.
And because of your terrorist threat Iām going to go to the police. Filing s formal restraining order based off of your threat!
It was no threat. Was just making you aware why Iām not saying much of anything in email. I
Last thing.. You wonāt force me to be with you anymore! Youāve terrorized me and made me afraid for my life but Iām going
fight back now! NO Woman should ever feel forced to be with you! You are pathetic! You are a terrorizing lunatic! You
think you can threaten me just because I DONT want you! You have been holding me hostage with your threats for years!!
I AM NOT YOUR HOSTAGE ANYMORE!!
Cult leaders threaten to keep victims from leaving the cult! You wonāt stop me from leaving and you wonāt threaten me or
terrorize me anymore!
Iām not going to try and cause any trouble for you as you navigate your new life and new girlfriend. Iām an adult and know
that sometimes things just donāt work. We didnāt work, but I do want you to be happy with someone else. I hope you will
want that for me and for me to be happy without any interference from you. Iām sorry it ended like this.. and Iām sorry that I
was the only one who cared enough to say Iām sorry. You never cared and your not sorry, but thatās done now. You made
that decision and choice. I hope you have s wonderful life ahead of you and that you get all the things that bring you
happiness. God bless and good luck. I will be just fine. Iām tough. I will get through this smoothly. Goodbye Joey. Goodbye
to your kids and I hope they are successful in their lives. Good luck.
Will you please call me back
Good morning, beautiful. Hope that you got to sleep and rest. I take [ My Son Name ] at 11 and Iāll be heading over with wire and stuff to fix the lights the trimmer and the mower spotlight to replace leaners. I love you and I miss you and I canāt wait to see you.
I donāt know why you let me come over today when you told me how much you hate me and how you wish I would die and rot in hell. Which is why I was uncomfortable being there.
I wonāt interfere with you and your ex-husband or cause you any problems.
Iām very deeply and sincerely sorry and extremely regretful that I refused to be adult enough to own my mistake and take responsibility and the consequences that goes with it. Iām sorry so very sorry that I put my selfishness and my feelings and wants of you ahead of yours. I just didnāt want a life without you. I just wanted a life with you and eternity. I selfishly and foolishly put those wants and desires ahead of doing the right thing and taking accountability and responsibility for a very bad mistake I made. I am so very sincerely and genuinely sorry I couldnāt be adult enough before now.
It wasnāt intentional. Iām not gonna run and hide from it. Iām not gonna make an excuse about my state of mind and the wreck of a human being, I was at the time. I made the mistake and I own it.
I made that mistake. I own it.
Like an adult, I must face the consequences of that mistake. Wonāt bother you with it anymore.
I appreciate it if you would never contact me again. Bragging about fucking the ugliest goddamn woman is atrocious, but thatās just you . Goodbye.
It was exactly like I confessed the first time. Nothing more or different.
The ugliest goddamn woman. Ugliest donkey face and you brag. Lol. LOL. Thatās actually mean to a donkey. I know you think this is working but it just makes me hate you more. I made the correct decision. Ty. I am totally happy.
I had already confessed to you, I just wasnāt willing to be adult enough to accept the consequences of that mistake. The first night I confessed, I told you everything. There is nothing new here. I donāt think this is helping me and thatās not what itās about, Itās about being an adult and owning my mistake.
Feels great to know NOW that you only had a LIMP noodle dick with me., and not with donkey ass face. Feels great to know that. And another reason why I am making the right decision. You should be with Kristie, she knows how to fuck! Remember!? Unlike my boring ass. No worries. Happy for the confirmation.
Youāve already known for years. I confessed to you the first time is exactly how it was and went. Youāve already known because I confessed to you all those years ago. Itās nothing new or different.
You had already known because I had confessed. Wonāt bother you with this anymore.
You couldnāt get an erection with me. Thank you Joey. I hope today has made you happy. Now Iām going on with my life. I am worthy of a good man. Take care.
Yes, you confessed that you FUCKED her Four times in 24-36 hours. I get it! You couldnāt get an erection with me AND you Never fucked me four times in 24 hours. Youāve said it all. I got my confirmation. Do you think I would want to be with someone thatās not attracted to me or desires me the way you desired Kristie!?? No thanks. Too many other hard cocks out there that will want to show me that Iām desired in that way. Iām not upset. Iām happy. Iām excited to meet my person. Ty.
Too bad. If someday you want to give me the messages that you sent and received from her to prove all of the things you have said, so be it. If not, Iām still moving on with someone else.
Not a mistake for me. I want to be desired and Iām going to have those experiences with someone else, like you did. Your dick was with another woman. Itās no mistake for me. Iām doing it because I want to feel loved and desired again. You donāt love me. You said so. You said she knew how to fuck and you wanted her not me. I believe you.
Too bad your actions didnāt prove that. You didnāt expect to get caught. It was Gods will that you got caught. Iām not supposed to be with you. But Iām going to explore new things and people. Itās Godās plan.
itās not Godās plan otherwise We wouldnāt be here today doing this. Going back-and-forth on email.
A ton of my actions showed and proved that.
Well then.. no more email. You will learn your lesson. You fucked her and you fucked yourself. Goodbye.
Doesnāt matter. Because of what you said to my face in my kitchen, Iām still going to do whatever I desire with anyone I want. You will just have to grit your teeth and deal with all the visuals that you put in my head. Oral. All of it. People donāt change. You continued to betray me with shaving. You proved that you donāt know what real love is.. or you couldnāt care less what I wanted or needed. Iāve taken notice. Iām busy.
One last thing.... Four times is really all I needed to believe. Nothing like that occurred with me, so itās unbelievable that you wanted her so many times in such a small window of time. That speaks volumes to me. I bet I can beat that record easily with someone that wants me. Iām excited.
I would never let you know the real person who will be the beneficiary of all my unmet wants and desires and needs. Thatās special and secret between me and him. Just like you and Pam. You and Kristie. You and Angie. You and Kelly . You and Tonia. You and the mystery woman on your phone. All of that is special and secret between you and them. Mmmm hmmm. Iām salivating. Youāve given me the ultimate gift. Freedom from you!
Itās the consequences of the mistake I made, just going to be adult about it.
Calling it a mistake is just another slap in my face. Deliberately Fucking someone is not a mistake. Take care.
Iām sorry that I made you feel that way, it was not my intention for you to feel like you got slapped in the face.
I will be adult about the consequences. I wonāt bother you or be any interference or cause any problems for you.
I assume you fucked someone else so I guess not
You must be drunk.
Goodnight and good luck.
I understand . You fucked another woman FOUR times! It sucks. I will get through it. Good luck.
I wonāt dignify that with an answer.This is so silly and stupid, ridiculous and childish. The other night you called my mother a whore, who was nothing but kind and gracious to you, Youāre 50 years old, not three. Your beef is with me, not them, but you attacked and insulted them anyways. You chose to level the ugliest insults at my parents, whoāve done and did nothing to you, nothing at all. First, you shouldāve never said it. Secondly, you should feel awful, terrible and horrible about it and wanted to apologize for it. You didnāt, donāt and wonāt and that says it all about you.
You should, also, feel regret and remorse, but you donāt. You think and feel that it is/was justified and that youāre not accountable or responsible for your actions, behavior and words and it is/was ok and nothing was wrong with it. Everything is wrong with that. They did nothing to you. There is nothing that excuses or justifies what you said about them or even bringing them into this with me.
You should, also, feel regret and remorse, but you donāt. You think and feel that it is/was justified and that youāre not accountable or responsible for your actions, behavior and words and it is/was ok and nothing was wrong with it. Everything is wrong with that. They did nothing to you. There is nothing that excuses or justifies what you said about them or even bringing them into this with me.
Shame is on you, for not apologizing for what you said about my mother and my father. Shame on you for not feeling any regret or remorse for it or wanting to correct it. Shame on you for not feeling awful, horrible and terrible and wanting to apologize for it. Shame is on you for not feeling sorry about what you said about my parents. That says everything about you.
You should feel awful, terrible and horrible and be full of regret and remorse for not only what you said about my parents, also for telling someone that you wished and hoped they would die and rot in hell and telling them, again, a second time, just to die and they wonāt be missed, but you donāt. That is way beyond shameful.
Those were your actions, behaviors and words, not mine. There is no damn excuse or justification for attacking my parents. None. Hoping and wishing for someone to die and telling them, is not the action, behavior or words of a kind, caring, nice or loving person.
Like most people when I have done something or said something that I regret or know was wrong, I try to apologize for what Iāve done or said. Like, most people, I feel remorseful, regretful and sorrow for what I have done or said and try to correct it and apologize for it. I canāt tell you how to think or feel or what to do. It just wasnāt right and it is shameful.
And Iām talking about what you said about my mother and father. Iām fair game. it just isnāt right and it is downright shameful.
Look at the depths, this has sunken too. The bottom. The gutter. Itās sunken so low that you brought my parents into it for no reason and insulted them in an awful terrible way. I do care about you and I do love you. We shouldnāt be at this level. It should never be like this. Iām not gonna snap or wig out. Iām not in that place that I was years ago. I do love you and I do care about you. It didnāt and doesnāt need to be like this.
Look at the depths, this has sunken too. The bottom. The gutter. Itās sunken so low that you brought my parents into it for no reason and insulted them in an awful terrible way. I do care about you and I do love you. We shouldnāt be at this level. It should never be like this. Iām not gonna snap or wig out. Iām not in that place that I was years ago. I do love you and I do care about you. It didnāt and doesnāt need to be like this.
We canāt even do a simple return of items and stuff. How adolescent of us both.
We canāt even do a simple return of items and stuff. How adolescent of us both.
It hurts that you attacked me last night and especially this morning. I donāt know how to help you. You seem to not care or want help and just push everyone away. I hope you can find peace with whatever your going through. I realize after last nights messages to me, that thereās more stuff you did behind my back. And Iām sad about it, but youāve obviously already done it and canāt take it back. I hope the best for you in whatever you go on to do. Sincerely.
It hurts that you attacked me last night and especially this morning. I donāt know how to help you. You seem to not care or want help and just push everyone away. I hope you can find peace with whatever your going through. I realize after last nights messages to me, that thereās more stuff you did behind my back. And Iām sad about it, but youāve obviously already done it and canāt take it back. I hope the best for you in whatever you go on to do. Sincerely.
You were the one I wanted, loved and wanted to be with. Why else? You stated that everyone should be with the one they love, I had been trying to be.
Youāve answered nothing. Youāve cleared up nothing. So why keep emailing me? Dead end street. You have provided nothing, which gets nothing.
I figured it was just a poke and provoke. Go away cowardly little boy. š¼
Sorry, I had to take [ REDACTED ] to work.
Exactly, Nothing gets nothing. I have provided the answers to that for years. It was nothing that you imagine it to be. Iāve answered for years on years and it isnāt any different.
Ok. At my house you said you Fucked her four times in 24 hours. You should definitely be with her. Take care.
Do you know all the crap that you had said and insulted me with the day before? I was angry when I said that. No, Iām trying to be with the one I wanted to be with and want to be with, Which is you and always has been.
It is no different than I have said for years. It is exactly the same. I was angry at all the stuff that you had Been saying to me. It was nothing different than I have described over the years.
Doesnāt matter. I know what happens to a man after he ejaculates and then waits an hour to do it again.. itās hours and hours of fucking because itās harder for him to ejaculate again. Thatās what you did with her. Oh well. Iām going to get mine soon. A man that lusts over me and we fuck four times in 24 hours at least... and then hours and hours of it. Canāt wait.
Do you realize all the stuff you say to me? I was angry and mad, I said it out of anger the way I did.
That is not the way it was or happened.
Do you realize that I went to a funeral and you shaved? You completely pushed me out of your life when you betrayed again. None of this matters anymore. You did this! You!
I didnāt shave when you Weāre gone For the funeral. I got angry because you pushed me away on that Saturday. Thatās the reason I shaved.
Well only you and that worthless hag will know the truth.. the secret between just the two of you. Gotta go.
You say it doesnāt matter anymore, then it doesnāt matter anymore. What about the items and stuff being returned?
What we had already discussed.
It seems thatās all that needs to be discussed between us is the return of my items and stuff. How and when do you propose to get my items and stuff returned to me?
I donāt have any of your stuff. Go ask your mommy. š¼ . Oh wait she died and was cremated in 2021
Of course you have some of my stuff.
How is that lawsuit against Pam coming along? Did the feds get her yet?? Has she returned all of your STOLEN items that you have on camera? Hmmm..
Are you crying? Try sucking on a lemon š. Cry baby Cry.
Ah! More secrets and remaining tight lipped about Pam! Excellent choice!
Correct. Go away cowardly little boy š¼. All of your messages go to the junk. Nothing but trash. Happy Friday š š
Pain in your ass I will be no more.
Ok. I will take that as you are leaving and thatās your choice. I wish you well and the best of luck. I hope you find exactly
what makes you happy. I have a lot to do. Take care.
You made your choice. My ex hubby will be more than happy to help me so no worries
You donāt have to worry about me In 21 days, Iāll Be headed to prison as you wanted, so I wonāt be a pain in your ass
anymore.
Good luck with Kristie. Iām getting the duck out of the way. I have adult things, youāre a pussy.
Itās all on you. Thereās no damn skank. Thatās just a bunch of deflection and bullshit to deflect away from Your statement. You said flat out Iām a pain in your ass most of the time and you donāt need A man like me. Your words, tonight. I donāt wanna be a pain in anyoneās ass and I donāt know anybody that would want to be.
Itās on you and I hope you and your ex hubby are happy together. You left that door open and thatās on you too.
More proof that youāre a pain and wonāt grow up. No more from me. I will get in contact with him tomorrow. Thanks. Take
care. No response necessary.
He is brilliant and would never make such a foolish mistake. You lose.
You are a weak little.. sorry we ever met. I am angry and no way I will let this go. I will get even. Jerk.
God you will be so mad at yourself. Canāt go back now. Hahahaha! Omg. Iām going to enjoy. Mmmhmmmm. No more
Itās in the calendar in ink. Be well and happy. This is my closure0 and youāll only hear from me through a lawyer. ????
So reminiscent of the days when my dog was sick, and you run off like a baby. Good riddance. I will never forget this and Iām better off without some weak and pathetic person. Iāve called for help and happy you have Pam, sheās the one for you. Take care.
This is the last thing I ever wanted to ask, but is your offer for the money I gave you for the driveway still valid? You have no idea how humiliating and embarrassing this is having to ask you that. It would provide some breathing room and allow me to keep the truck, work and earn money.
It would be unbelievably wonderful of you if it is and you would.
Canāt pay it. [Photo of disconnect notice from Ameren disconnect date 8/12]
I needed to ask. I understand.
I thought you might because I know the person that you are, but I do understand.
On the off chance that you read anything from me, you know that I would like to have my personal belongings and items back.
Iām sure that youāve already gathered them and boxed or bagged them. Iām sure that you donāt want to store them or keep them. Can you please just get them returned to me?
This message is in regard to getting my personal items and belongings returned to me. I do want and would like to have my personal belongings and items returned. Heather, can you please, get them returned to me. Thank you.
If my belongings and items are on the way and they just havenāt arrived yet, thank you, I appreciate it and Iām sorry for these messages regarding their return. Thank you and be well.
This is and has been life-changing for me and of course I am grieving the absence of you from my life. Getting those items returned will help with the grieving and healing process. This is difficult enough as it is. I have shared my feelings many times before about this and how I view this and you already know.
I am really sad and depressed about all of this. I am grieving. Your absence is majorly significant and is and has been a major change. I donāt harbor one ill feeling about/for/toward you. I am not asking you for anything other than my personal belongings and items to be returned, which is normal and nothing out of the ordinary.
Lastly, I canāt go beyond this topic and I wonāt be going beyond this topic. Even though I would like to. I just would like my items and belonging to returned. Iām sure youāre not reading any of this, but I am also sorry for all the messages regarding the return of those things.
I have never loved someone so much. I have never cared for someone so much. I have never missed someone so so much. I have never distrusted someone so much. To me, Not getting my personal items and belongings returned leaves the door open and that is the way I view it and take it. Maybe that is your intention or maybe not, but it is the way I view things. You know that I would like them back if..
I am miserable and beyond depressed. They are taking everything this week. I miss my best friend. I am struggling mightily. I know Iām wasting my time by writing this because youāre not reading it anyways. I really need the money, but I know Iām just wasting my time asking. Iāve made it clear about my items and personal belongings.
I actually do love you. I actually do care deeply about you. I actually am in love with you. I actually miss you so damn much. I am actually totally miserable. I actually am absolutely completely depressed. I am totally desperate for money. My weight has cratered. I am beyond miserable. They actually are going to be taking my truck at the end of the week. I actually desperately did need that money.
As much as I donāt like this, and I hate it, actually, which makes no difference at all. I just donāt understand not allowing me to get my personal items and belongings back. Iām not asking with any intention of trying to provoke a reaction nor a response. I am asking, simply, because they belong to me. You know how I view this, Iāve expressed it many times. I miss my best friend. I miss you. I am miserable. I am depressed. You have been a major part of my life for a very long time. This has been more than difficult. It is difficult. You know how I view those things and it only adds to how difficult it is. I miss you. I donāt understand about not letting me get my belongings back. I just donāt.
This is really difficult, as it is, for me, not getting those back leaves it open for me making this even far more difficult. I do love you And I do care Deeply about and for you. I just donāt understand why I canāt get those back from you.
Hello. I go to my last probation meeting this morning at 10. I get to pee in a cup one last time. Next thursday at 12:01 a.m. I will no longer be a convicted felon. I will no longer be an inmate. Yes they did know, there was contact between us. Yes I faced going to prison. You have no idea the stress that I was under and had been living with. You couldnāt possibly. I miss you. I wish things were different. You know how I feel about my personal belongings and items. I love you with all my heart and I am really struggling, but I am functioning and being productive. Just been trying to figure out how to make money. Hope and wish things are going well for you and life finds you well. This has been really difficult, just would like to get my things back from you, if thatās the way you want this. I miss you and I love you.
I do love you. I do care about you. I do miss you. Not that makes any difference. You are my best friend. The pressure of the situation has eased quite a bit. Stress is coming way down. I would just like to do things normally and be normal.
Canāt we just do something normal?? You have talked with me only twice in over a month. Itās been over a month since
weāve seen each other, I donāt understand why I canāt get my things back from you.
You know this isnāt how I wanted things to be, but.. I am not asking for nor wanting something that is out of the ordinary or unusual.
You know, I want to be with you and for us to be together, but that doesnāt make any difference to you. I love and adore you. I donāt want to be a nuisance nor cause any problems for you. I just would like my belongings back, since, those things donāt make any difference to you. Iām not asking for anything unusual or out of the ordinary.
I paid off the truck in full today. I will be going next week to pay all my back real estate taxes. I have fixed and resolved my financial situation. I will be selling the house. when I resubscribed to SiriusXM they activated your radio and I cannot cancel it. Itās paid for another year. Sorry about that.
It requires you to call and cancel it, If youāre uncomfortable with it.
I am sorry about that. It wasnāt intentional.
Iām just letting you know it wasnāt intentional.
I do sincerely apologize for the intrusion. I tried to cancel, but they wonāt let me.
Well, Iām going be getting a dumpster on Monday and begin clearing out and getting ready to move out. I have just been taking care of the things I needed too on my own, keeping busy and being productive. I am sincerely sorry that I still have moments where I call you, I miss you and youāve been a major part of my life for a long time. I truly do love you with all my heart and soul. I realize that you donāt read anything from me, which is OK. I miss you more than words could ever describe. Hope youāre doing well. I miss you and I love you.
This past week, I went to my family and told them everything. Started with calling Paul to tell him about my financial situation and then my sister called and I finally yesterday called and talked to my dad and told him. My sister and Paul bought me out of the house and bought the jet skis and boat from me. This coming week either Monday or Tuesday I will be paying all my back real estate taxes on my home in full. I feel so much better and it wasnāt near as embarrassing and humiliating as I thought it would be, actually made me feel better. A whole lot better. I am selling the house and I am going to be moving. I donāt know where yet, but I will be moving. I am in a much better place than I have been in many years. The constant fear, anxiety, pressure and stress of going to prison is all but gone. I am no longer desperate, and making desperate decisions, which I have for many years. It was one desperate decision after another desperate decision which compounded into a total train wreck. I know you donāt read these things, but I thought I would share anyways and tell you that I have manned up.
Can I have them returned?
Tonight at midnight when it switches over to the 22nd, Iām officially done with probation. All the pressure, stress, anxiety, fear and desperation I had been under for a few years is all gone. Iām no longer desperate about anything. Iām going to be getting around $520k out of the house when it sells. Iām going to have an estate sale and then move whatever doesnāt sell. I can finally breathe. In roughly 60 days I am out of this house. I am going to rent for a little bit and take my time in picking a home instead of just a house. I have no ill feelings toward or about you at all. The pressure is off and Iām no longer full of anxiety and fear, and it feels wonderful. I canāt wait to get out of this house, Itās been my prison for many years. Hope life finds you well.
Iām sitting here remembering how I would jump from email address to email address to get your attention. I would call and call and call and I would start texting and texting and texting. All in a desperate attempt to get your attention. Whether you are reading things from me or not, thatās for you to decide not for me to try and make you. I remember, I would start to provoke and provoke and provoke to get you to pay attention to me out of sheer desperation and panic. It shouldāve always been left up to you to decide and not forced upon you. I sincerely and deeply regret that I did those things and acted in such a horrible way to you. I am truly sincerely and genuinely sorry for my behavior and my words.
Hello. Hope all is going well for you. You once asked me, not long ago, what would I, actually, do if I got my belongings and stuff back from you? The answer is, I would go away and be completely out of your life. For me, my belongings being there provides me hope, as you want them and me there and provides a reason to continue to try and contact you and keep the auto shipments going. Getting my belongings returned to me will provide finality and complete closure. I believe you know this isnāt what or how I want it to be between us. I believe you know that I donāt want my belongings out of your home and to be out of your life and have you out of mine, but you do. Iām positive that you have gathered them up and they are bagged or boxed somewhere, thereās no reason for them to still be there and not returned to me. Returning them to me will get me totally out of your life. I did want the dolly back and the tools I left on the black rack next to the Mercedes, but you canāt mail those. Iām not asking for anything out of the ordinary nor unusual. Itās the final step and it closes the door shut. Not returning them, Keeps the door open, which is how I perceive it and feel about it. Not getting them returned, provides reason to continue to contact you. If you want me completely out of your life, then you will return my items back to me or allow me to collect them. Please let me know how and when you plan to get those back and returned to me. Please.
To be fair to you, you need to say those things again about not contacting you. Anything before today no longer can be used in court.
There will be a very significant, major and direct impact on you financially. When I file, bankruptcy personal and corporate, but entirely corporate, I, [ Name Redacted ] , will be required to notify you of that bankruptcy and how it will affect you. The conservator assigned by the federal magistrate, will assign all monies spent out of the company directly on you as income of yours because of the way I had designated those expenditures. You will receive 1099ās for seven years (2018-2024). The total amount will be north of $500,000. Attached is a screenshot of just one of hundreds of similar emails you sent me. There are hundreds of emails of you asking me to give you cash or you asking me to buy you things and to pay for things for you.
In those emails several of them state you want to avoid drawing attention to the cash when you deposit it and how you would deposit it over time to not draw the attention of the IRS, which is knowing admission. When I file corporate bankruptcy, this will definitely occur and happen. Itās up to you, whether I file for bankruptcy or not, but time is quickly running out.
I know itās crappy, but.. At least you wonāt be blindsided by it.
There is also a significant trail of you using my corporate debit card ending in 2103 to make online purchases that trace to your email address and the items being shipped and delivered to your home.
I am just making you aware and notifying you that there will be an impact to you when I file bankruptcy for the corporation. It is no joke, it is legitimate. I never signed or provided you the required requisite gift forms for tax purposes and you know that.
I am just letting you know. So you wonāt be blindsided by it.